a poem by heart

The Lost Me

I’ m a simple person

Dreaming simple dreams

Living ordinarily as what others did

I breath, I eat, there is nothing unusual about me

Except that my heart and mind seems to keep

fighting inside me.

I cry, I laugh, I feel joy and pains of life

I have problems, I face wilderness and I try to pass through

This moment my heart cries, cries with unknown reason

And my mind is exposed to confusion

That only solitude can give distraction.

Every day I feel the life’s burden

Like heavy loads coming from somewhere

I don’t even know what I really feel

And I’m clueless of what the next things may take over.

I’ll face the mirror and ask myself

Will He forgive me?

Will He still grant my wishes?

Will He accept me in his kingdom?

Will He stays in my heart?

These questions remained unanswered

I know it had been too much

I don’t know what happened

I don’t know who I am

I feel like I’m a changed person

I hate myself for that

I must admit I never learn, never. .

I don’t know where I am now

Light became darkness

I only hear sounds of silence

Only me, in a lonely place

Weeping but controlling my fear

This time I want to find the answer

And I want to go back

I’ll find ways to do that

I ask him to help me and be my guide.